45 Grace: The Deal with Pillows
I sit upright in bed, glaring at Caine, who clutches my old pillow against his chest like some kind of security blanket. His knuckles are white against the pale cotton, and he’s avoiding my eyes with the dedication of someone who’s been caught doing something deeply embarrassing.
“This one’s more comfortable for you,” he says, nodding at the pillow he just slid under my head.
“What is your deal with pillows?” The words snap out of me before I can stop them.
His entire body straightens further. “I don’t have a deal with pillows.”
The silence stretches.
And stretches.
He doesn’t say anything else, just stands there, rigid and awkward, clutching the damn pillow to his chest.
I sigh, and he immediately asks, “Why are you so angry?”
“I’m not angry.” The response is automatic, defensive, and a total lie to my current state of emotions.
He raises an eyebrow, skepticism written across every part of his face, and I wince.
“I’m not,” I insist. The truth is, I do think the pillow thing is creepy. Weird. Inexplicable. But saying so would hurt his feelings, and despite how irritated I am in this moment, I don’t actually want to do that.
“No. You’re angry,” he says firmly, like he already knows. Which… he isn’t wrong, so he does, but even his certainty grates on my nerves. “You’ve been angry for a while. And I don’t understand what I did wrong”
I groan, pressing my palms against my face. I’m not prepared for this emotional reckoning. Not now. I was still busy pouting and being outraged and hadn’t worked through my feelings completely. The storm left me dizzy and off–kilter, and I was relying on sleep to fix it.
I exhale slowly, dropping my hands to my lap, twisting the blanket between my fingers.
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It’s warm in here since we kicked off the air conditioner, but the faint hint of a cool breeze is at least coming through the windows,
“I don’t know. Maybe I’m going crazy.” My voice comes out tiny and pathetic, lowering further into a mumble as I continue, “But every time you won’t let the kids even near
me…
I lower my hands, pecking out from behind a curtain of blonde hair I’m still not used to seeing in my peripheral vision.
Caine is finally looking at me again. His brow is furrowed, eyes serious, the storm–gray of them focused entirely on my face. The intensity of his stare makes my skin prickle. “Bun took your energy,” he says calmly. “Of course I can’t let her touch you.”
“What?”
My brain screeches to a halt. Did he just say-
“Bun took your energy,” he repeats, with the flat certainty of someone stating water is
wet.
I stare at him, mouth slightly open, trying to process these words that make no sense. “What are you talking about?” I’ve held Bun so much and she’s never taken my
before.
your e
Energy
“She took energy. I came in here and you were unconscious, still holding her. Bun is fatal to you right now, and I’m not risking it. With any of the kids.”
My heart twists. “Fatal?”
Caine nods once, sharp and precise. “It must have been triggered with her shift during the storm. It might be… why she calmed down.”
My head suddenly hurts. A lot. I squeeze both sides of my head together, feeling a little like my skull is trying to split apart. “Are we sure? Maybe I just fainted.” I was feeling particularly lethargic and tired, but then again, I did just come out of the hospital… well, was kidnapped out of it. An altruistic kidnapping, if you will.
But denial is strong within me, because we’re talking about Bun. Sweet little baby Bun, who needs hugs and kisses and constant affection. I can’t just not touch her. “This doesn’t make sense. I was just… tired. Exhausted. The storm was weird. I’m not used mothering four kids.”
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“You were dying, Grace.”
The certainty in his voice chills me again. He believes what he’s saying. And… I doj too.
But I don’t want to.
“Then why didn’t you tell me?” I demand, my anger flaring hot again. Better to be angry than deal with whatever’s really going on, because I can’t touch Bun. “Why keep it a secret and just… just manage me like I’m some kind of invalid? You’ve been treating me like glass, keeping the kids away, doing everything yourself, calling me ‘darling in front of those old people-”
“Grace”
Caine sits awkwardly at the edge of the bed, perching there like it’s going to collapse beneath him. By the way it’s dipping, it might. He.clears his throat and scoots up a little closer, and the mattress no longer dips. Of course, this now means he’s only a couple inches away from me.
“What?” I’m surly, and he doesn’t deserve it. This man is trying to protect me, and he’s shown me how far he can go to do it. But I’m still angry and this anger has to go somewhere. (1)
“Your scent…” His fingers brush against the pillow in his arms, and he sighs. “It has some special power over me. Calms me when nothing else has. Keeps my thoughts clear. For the most part.” His eyes drop to my mouth, going a little dark.
For the most part.
A little tingle shoots through my back and into my abdomen, and I shiver. Caine clears his throat.
“Fenris said she was wild. Feral. Wouldn’t calm down until you touched her.”
I nod stiffly. Remembering Bun like that isn’t something I like doing. I’d rather not think about it.
He reaches out a hand, resting it gently on my knee, covered by the blanket. There’s a vague, soft flush of something going into him from me, but it’s muffled. Like something’s in the way.
“You seem to have a power to calm the beast inside of us. I’m not sure how or why, I’v never heard of anything like you before. It’s why you could calm Bun. But until we
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know what the limits of this power is, or how it’s triggered…”
“By touch.”
“Yes. But when? Why? How much? And how much can you take? He turns more fully toward me, letting the pillow fall limp in his lap as he reaches out to grab a strand of my hair. His voice goes husky. “I don’t want to risk seeing you hurt, Grace. That’s all. I’m not trying to take the children away from you.”
It’s hard to focus on his words with the way his eyes are focused on mine, but I manage. Somehow.
Maybe I could get a gold medal in Surviving Werewolf Pheromones. It should be an Olympic sport.
“Okay.”
All the anger I had fizzles out with all his soft, calm words and reasonable explanations, leaving me feel strangely empty. And tingly. And…
The back of his fingers brush against my cheek and I stiffen at the explosive contact, sucking in my breath hard. Caine’s breath hitches, too, and he yanks his hand away.
I grab his wrist, feeling the surge of energy between us. “Touch me. Don’t pull away this time.”
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